I love my silence & privacy & just being in my own world & space most of the time, but ever since you physically came into my life, made yourself comfortable in my arms then left on that train, I knew I wasn’t going to be able to just pick up from where I left off.
Brushing my teeth or just moving around with my thoughts is different now. Something has been removed; or maybe a part of me & my consciousness has been exchanged with you - it’s interesting.
I am always studying, learning, contemplating & discussing the universe & life. But as connected & unique & humble as I do feel, more than ever, I also have this aching & nagging point of pain & hurt inside. It’s been present ever since I knew you were much more than some significant friend or pen pal.
I can thank Tumblr for that.
But the rest, everything that’s happened between us only could have happened if we were operating on the same type of wavelength & our interests & perspectives about the world were nearly the same, which they are.
I don’t believe in fate because fate itself is interpretable from person to person depending on their level of scientific understanding about the natural world. I do, however, believe in destiny, because destiny is a measurable & traceable benchmark in someone’s life along the arrow of time.
And I’ve dreamt of loving someone like you all of my life. However ironic or mystifying it may be that our paths intersected in this moment of time, is irrelevant to me.
The only thing I see is my destiny.
Your presence & impact on my current existence is one of the most random, unexpected events of my life & has easily revealed to be one of the most clear & natural ways to discover what it means to truly fall in love with someone.
I’ve never looked forward this much to exploring each others’ privacy & create our own ‘personal space’
I love you,